Welcome to Monday... one day closer to the weekend!

Okay... okay I am sure we ALL hate Mondays. Some more than others. To be honest I usually like Mondays, up early at 6.00am to ensure I have breakfast with Darling Daughter before dropping her off to daycare at 7.00am . This morning alone was a challenge. The first time in a really long time, she cried while i attempted to leave. I understand she will missing me, I miss her more than she realises, but once her friends appear I believe I am forgotten.

After this challenge I am then off on the long travels to work. The positive of this journey, I pop in at hubby's work to swap cars, and steal a kiss. 

Do not get me wrong, I do enjoy my day job, it comes with challengers, work with a great ground of people.

How do I explain what I do? Not even my parents or hubby know or understand my job, so how am I to explain it to others? Basically I look after a group of engineers, assigning calls out and liaising with them and potential clients, order their parts and ensure thing run smoothly... easy enough?

All I know that it is fun, and sometimes I get surprises I do not expect. Today I was spoilt with a lovely warm apple cake still in the tin wrapped with a tea towel from a work mate. Unexpected and to be honest just what i needed this morning after a challenging couple of hours.

                            

This is what makes going to work better, or at least easier. There are some days that i just want to roll into a ball and cry, missing Darling Daughter or wanting to spend some quality time with hubby, something we do not get much off due to us both working on different hours, while it means Darling Daughter gets to spend time with both of us, I believe sometimes I am the one that suffers to a point. 

But as usual, I keep my head held high, remaining well trying to be positive positive positive.... but TRUST me there have been occasions in the shower I have shed a tear for how I feel and that I sometimes have way too much on my plate.

Today was hard. Yep stuffed up, made me feel sick. I felt like I had let down so many people. I know that I have so hard on myself, at times, I expect more of myself. When I do make a mistake whether it be small or big, I take it hard, thinking how could I do it. Then I remember  I am human.... we all make mistakes...

Then I got the comment, "oh you have it so together", me thinking NO I DO NOT!!! I am just a duck undeneath... now you know where the blog idea has come from. This is my forum to hopefully realise I am not the only one!

It is okay to let people know you are a duck at times swimming frantically to get to a certain point.. Swans my be elegant does not mean that they do the hard yards, I know I will get there eventually.

Tomorrow is Tuesday.... closer to Saturday.... not that I count down the week, but I know any mistakes of yesterday will be a distant memory, which I have learnt from.