What a week!

This past week was full of extreme highs and really bad lows.

 I got to go see Jason Mraz and Zac Brown Band at Sidney Myer Music Bowl (THIRD ROW BABY). That itself was an experience. I have been a massive fan of Jason Mraz for over 10 years. I remember when i chose to see him at the blues festival in Melbourne, over Ray Charles. There was only five us watching... so he decided to jump of the stage and just play in front of us, how intimate is that? Also his first headline show at the Prince of Wales, when i was first introduced to Pete Murray (when he had bulging muscles). That show was 4 hours of Jason Mraz for $50 (Bargain!)



Then on Tuesday I was lucky enough to meet one of my idols - Samantha Wills. What an amazing woman. I am lucky enough to own some of her gorgeous pieces; necklaces, rings and earrings. 

The event was held at Boxt Jewellery in the City. It was a stunning setting with a real imagine of enchantment and mystery. Yes before you ask i did spend a little bit of money. Luckily I got a couple of pieces I wanted, a necklace and bohemian ring... Perfect for my little Collection 

The week did not end so well, as my aunty passed away after an amazing fight with Ovarian Cancer. Yes it is a silent killer, so please listen to your own bodies girls. If you do not think something is right PLEASE get it checked out. 

Sundays are the new Mondays....

To me, Sundays are the new Mondays....a fresh start to the week. The day I attempt to do a weeks worth of cleaning into hours, prepare the meals for the week. Attempt to clean my daughters room and finally some me time.

This Sunday was no different. Hubby said I could go purchase a new ALDI Coffee Pod Machine as an early mother's day gift... first time a mothers day gift we ALL can use.... It took me a couple of goes to get the hang of it... Finally made darling daughter a hot chocolate with frothy milk and she devoured it! I made myself a coffee "Reggio" (the purple label, strength 9) and trust me hubby will benefit from this... I have done the dishes, two loads of washing, cleaned the bathroom and now eyeing off the dvd collection to re organise... energy is AMAZING! (This is in NO way a freebie from Aldi) 

Saturday was a good day for us, a family day something that can be rare at times. My ritual off to Victoria Market at 7am in the morning with my dad for the weekly meat shop. It is great quality time with my dad. My darling daughter has her one on one time with her Babcia (Grandma) for a porridge breakfast. While I am lucky enough experience the market, and attempt to meal plan for the next week. As hubby and i work alternative shifts, it makes dinner time so much easier as we get our fruit and veggies delivered as well. 

This Saturday was different after a rollercoaster week at work and emotionally, I finally felt that maybe I am not a crazy duck all the time. Maybe it is becoming more rare. There are days where I know i have left duck feathers all over work and home, but I know that in the end I will get to the point I need to be. For so long I thought I was not good enough. Finally I feel like I am on the right path.... waddling down!

Welcome to Monday... one day closer to the weekend!

Okay... okay I am sure we ALL hate Mondays. Some more than others. To be honest I usually like Mondays, up early at 6.00am to ensure I have breakfast with Darling Daughter before dropping her off to daycare at 7.00am . This morning alone was a challenge. The first time in a really long time, she cried while i attempted to leave. I understand she will missing me, I miss her more than she realises, but once her friends appear I believe I am forgotten.

After this challenge I am then off on the long travels to work. The positive of this journey, I pop in at hubby's work to swap cars, and steal a kiss. 

Do not get me wrong, I do enjoy my day job, it comes with challengers, work with a great ground of people.

How do I explain what I do? Not even my parents or hubby know or understand my job, so how am I to explain it to others? Basically I look after a group of engineers, assigning calls out and liaising with them and potential clients, order their parts and ensure thing run smoothly... easy enough?

All I know that it is fun, and sometimes I get surprises I do not expect. Today I was spoilt with a lovely warm apple cake still in the tin wrapped with a tea towel from a work mate. Unexpected and to be honest just what i needed this morning after a challenging couple of hours.

                            

This is what makes going to work better, or at least easier. There are some days that i just want to roll into a ball and cry, missing Darling Daughter or wanting to spend some quality time with hubby, something we do not get much off due to us both working on different hours, while it means Darling Daughter gets to spend time with both of us, I believe sometimes I am the one that suffers to a point. 

But as usual, I keep my head held high, remaining well trying to be positive positive positive.... but TRUST me there have been occasions in the shower I have shed a tear for how I feel and that I sometimes have way too much on my plate.

Today was hard. Yep stuffed up, made me feel sick. I felt like I had let down so many people. I know that I have so hard on myself, at times, I expect more of myself. When I do make a mistake whether it be small or big, I take it hard, thinking how could I do it. Then I remember  I am human.... we all make mistakes...

Then I got the comment, "oh you have it so together", me thinking NO I DO NOT!!! I am just a duck undeneath... now you know where the blog idea has come from. This is my forum to hopefully realise I am not the only one!

It is okay to let people know you are a duck at times swimming frantically to get to a certain point.. Swans my be elegant does not mean that they do the hard yards, I know I will get there eventually.

Tomorrow is Tuesday.... closer to Saturday.... not that I count down the week, but I know any mistakes of yesterday will be a distant memory, which I have learnt from.

Welcome to my Blog!

Welcome to my humble blog.... No.... I really do not know how i do it! I thought for so long that the blog world was for me, so many thoughts and feelings building up, thinking I am sure I am not alone... there are others out there!

Well here we are! 

With new blogs... I guess there are expectations, and here is what you can expect from mine. It is about me and the daily juggling act i have being a working mum. So many people comment how together I am and so organised, yet I believe the best analogy of me is that i am a swan above water and a swimming duck under water! It is really bloody hard. It is really hard to find the balance between your own dreams, not holding your husband back and then making sure that your darling daughter grows and blooms.

So being a new blog, to be honest I have no idea where this will go.... whether I join the world of facebook and reach out to other swan/duck mothers out there.... let me know how you feel... do you sometimes feel like this?

Whether it be after a long day at work, just wishing that you had 30 minutes to sit in the bath quiet, reading a book, when in reality your darling daughter is reading her Dora the Explorer book to you... or when you come home for your husband  to announced you are cooking dinner, when that is the last thing on your mind!

So this being my 1st post. I will keep it short. I would hate to bore you all to fall asleep!

But i leave you with this, if you had one day, what would you wish you could do without doing what you are obliged to do!